wow. turning 40. already. when did this happen?
and the fun part is: I LIKE IT. i LOVE it even! i've never felt this good in my life. i feel strong. i've finally managed to deal with my fear and anxiety issues which had been haunting me for years and years. for my whole life actually. you can read more about that here.
my life is a bit crazy at the moment though. with juggling 3 companies, 2 kids and somewhat of a household. and me needing to crochet & create is kinda challenging, but i know i can do this. in my own time and my own pace.
the last couple of years have been rough, but i know i came out stronger. at 40 i know now i can make my own decisions, not afraid to say what i want to say, can handle critizisme (as long as it comes from someone who knows how it is to walk in my shoes!). Brene Brown says it so beautifully "as long as you are not here with me, down in this arena fighting, you are not the one to judge". not exactly those words, but you know what i mean. she's a genius.
so turning 40 means a lot to me. it means i've been able to establish a great life, give lots of love to my kids, the love i myself did not receive, and enjoy life so much. turning 40 doens't hurt. at all.
on the agenda today: NOTHING BUT PARTY. i say.
life is good. 40 let's dance!